Let's talk about university...

Sit down with a cuppa my friends because this is gonna be one of them long ass blog posts I never seem to do anymore!

I thought now would be the best time to put a post up like this in case any of you guys are thinking "WTF do I do with my life" after you're done with school. Maybe you're thinking about uni, maybe uni's the last thing on your mind, but hopefully this post will make you chill out a smidge more than you were, because throwback to a year or so ago I was in the same boat as you reading this. After I finished sixth form I had just started a new job in retail and really enjoyed finally getting a decent pay and actually being able to save money for the first time in ages! I had no flipping idea what I wanted to do after I finished school. I actually really enjoyed school and the subjects I took, I just never really knew which one I loved enough to take further into a career. I got pretty good results, so I had quite a few doors open that I could choose from if I wanted. I wasn't really fussed about going to university because nothing stood out for me.

When I think back to being at sixth for I feel like there was pressure all around me to go to uni. I remember there being like a curriculum enhancement week or something, and now I think about it, it was really revolved about university. We even went and spent an entire day at a university, exploring the lecture rooms, accommodation. I thought I was a bit of a failure for not having that in the pipeline then. But if you don't know what the hell you're doing why bother getting into a ton of debt and going back to learn for a further 3/4 years just because someone's pressuring you to go? You can always go when you decide what you want to do.

Honestly, I'm so glad I didn't go now. After a few months I was thinking about going to a university close to home, and started looking at some sociology/criminology courses. I even applied for a criminology an sociology course and got in to the university I wanted! I was going! I was actually going to uni. Then I decided after a bit of thinking and heart to heart mum and bf chats. My heart wasn't in it. FFS Abi I know! I had told my nan and everything! I thought about what I was going to do afterwards and I still wasn't sure, although I did have an inkling (which didn't work out), again I didn't want to waste years away when i could be cracking on to something else I really enjoyed! You can imagine the pit of "well what are you going to do now then" which was wavering over me once I had rung the university and told them I wouldn't be going.

Fast forward a few months I started to worry. I was bloody 18 and worried about what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Note to everyone. It doesn't matter how old you are, don't let it knock you down that your mates or friends on Facebook seem to be doing what they love already or are cracking on with life and you might not quite be there yet. Your time will come. I saw everyone at uni or people who seemed to do what they love and I was just stuck in a bit of a pit. Not fun.

After realising I didn't fancy going to university I started looking at other jobs I might be interested in. I was scrolling on the Indeed website for agesssss most days, and just seeing the same kind of jobs crop up made me feel worse about my decision not to go to university. Finally something just clicked. After Christmas just gone I started thinking about other jobs that may take my fancy that didn't involve sitting at a desk all day or working in retail, which were the only kind of jobs I thought id be able to get. WRONG. I started looking in the travel sector instead, and saw they offered apprenticeships which put a light bulb in my head! Apprenticeships! I quickly went on the GOV website and saw an apprenticeship course in my area that took my fancy! I did think about the money side of things, but at the moment I'm in a good position where I live with my parents, and I don't have many outgoings (thank god). I just need to resist the need to treat myself every week I get paid!

I just feel like finally the two year wait came to an end! I know some people may take longer to find what they want to, but for me two years seemed long enough! I feel like now I'm finally cracking on with my own dream. I'm starting to think about what I want to pursue afterwards and I'm excited to see what happens in the future! 

I hope this helps somewhat! Let me know if you're going to uni this year or if you were / are in the same boat as me!

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